Arrival, part II

"Master, it's cold in here", he says.
"I know, Loki, but shush and stay quite. No talking unless I ask you a question."
I examine him, up and down, walking in circles around him just to take him all in.
"On your hands and knees, Loki."
He obeys in silence.
This would be the time when I would wrap his hands and form his paws, as well as put in his tail. Not today. Today I kneel on the floor next to him, taking each hand in turn into mine, and just caressing them as if I was taping them. Next I stand. I reach for his collar and adjust it a bit, before sliding my hand softly down his spine. Goosebumps pop up on his skin - nervous and cold. He shivers a bit but is completely silent, realizing he shouldn't complain. I spread his cheeks a little and rub my thumb over his anus with just a little pressure to remind him of the pleasure of having the tail put in. I end by playfully slapping his ass as a like to do.

I stand back for a moment, just gazing at him on his knees before me, awed by the situation. He won't look at me he's so worried.

Again I walk in circles around him, just observing him. I stop in front of him.
"Stand", I say in a firm but gentle voice.
He stands.

I walk to a corner of the room, and from a bag he had not noticed before I grab my red ropes.
In silence, I bind his arms behind him. Next I nearly mummify his arms and torso in rope, wrapping him up, safe and secure. Then I kneel in front of him. Ever so gently I bind his cock and balls. I treat them with respect and dignity and concern. Loki's cock, of course, can't hide it's pleasure despite his overall unease. Next I bind Loki's legs. He struggles a bit to keep his balance, but does.

Often for times like this, I would gag and blindfold Loki. But today, I don't want to take away his voice and sight. Today I want him to be quite because I've requested it, not because I forced him to do something. I want him to see so later he can remember and understand what I have done.

Now I stand in front of him again, quiet for a moment longer. His gaze is still avoiding mine.
"Loki," I command gently "look at me. Meet my eyes."
He looks up, a bit hesitantly, not sure what to expect. Eventually we lock gazes. I so love staring into those dark depths, trying to see through them. I smile at the feeling it brings me. He tries to smile back, that totally irresistible smile flashes across his face, just for a second. I can tell he's happy to be with me, happy to be bound this way, and enjoying the moment, but still in all a bit anxious as well. I grin more.
He tries to break his eyes away.
"No" I command. "Eyes still on mine".
Still in my firm voice: "Loki, do you trust me?".
"Yes, Master, I trust you."
"Loki, do you respect me?"
"Yes, Master. I respect you."
"Loki, do you love me?"
"Yes, Master, I love you. I love my master."
My voice looses its edge.
"Loki - I love you, too. I am so glad that we are together. I am so glad we are here now. You are with me. I brought you here today because I wanted to demonstrate my feelings for you. I looked you all over because I want you to feel in my gaze how proud I am of you. And I don't mean just physically, but you - "naked" to me, who you are deep inside, as you let little pieces out to share with me. I respect you for you.
I wanted to show you that while I am glad to have you as a puppy, I want you as a human, too. I am happy to give you that puppydom because I can see how much you want it. It is part of my gift to you.
I bound you like this because I want to support and protect you. I want you to feel loved and secure. I will put you in your crate or wrap you in my ropes or wrap you in my arms, whenever you need or want it.
I want to be your pillar of strength, to be your support. Know that I'm not perfect and I'll slip and stumble in that role at times. Neither one of us is perfect. We will both make mistakes, but we can make them together.
I want to be with you, to be there for you. I want to return all the support and encouragement and love you provide me. You allow me to be the stronger person I really am and have helped me grow. I want to do all that for you, too, because you are a wonderful and amazing human being.
I want you. I am proud to have you by my side and I am so glad you are here with me now. I love you, Loki."

I stare into his eyes a few moments more, soul to soul. I kneel again and unbind his legs. I help him down to the floor next to me. I wrap my arms around him and we sit together in silence. Outside the world goes by, heedless of this moment between us. But when we leave here, we will be stronger, together, ready to face any challenges.

Arrival, part I

I meet Loki at the train.
It's raining steadily as we run for the car. A warm early summer rain.
Loki hops into the car, chattering contentedly: he's glad to be with me, his master, again, school is finally over, things are looking up. I reply with appropriate murmurs of agreement and ask questions to appear interested. In reality, I'm a bit preoccupied with my own thoughts.

Loki is in full puppy mode in his excitement. He's so playful and full of himself. He makes silly comments, tries to tease me about my driving, and is generally pesty.
"Keep it up," I say, "and you'll find yourself bound and gagged in the backseat!"
He whimpers, recalling the last time that did happen (a story for another day, dear reader).

After a moment or two of silence, he begins to prattle on again, but now it is out of nervousness. He's picked up on my pent up energy and distraction. He starts to worry. He specifically avoids asking what is wrong though, a bit afraid of the possible answer. Did he do something wrong? Am I going to punish him for something?

We drive along in the rain for a while. Ahead is an old, abandoned, run-down farmhouse. The associated barn has long since collapsed. The house itself sits on the edge of town, right on the main road, considered an eyesore by many. This is where I pull over and stop, right in front of this house.

Loki eyes me nervously. He's totally silent now.
I get out of the car, go around to his door, open it, and say "Get out, now".
He obeys, ever the faithful pup, even in fear.

He stands before me. Cars rush by us, no one caring. In front of the world I put Loki's collar on him and attach the leash. I turn toward the house in silence. Loki follows, knowing he'd better be on heel, at my side, but a bit to worried to walk any but a half pace behind. We climb the rickety steps with caution and I push open the door. Loki enters behind me, whimpering. I shut the door behind him. I shush him and lead him farther into the house.

It's a dark room on the front of the house, you can still hear the road. Light leaks in between the boards over the windows.
"Strip" I command. "Take it all off."
He does. Totally silent for once. He stands before me in the half-light naked except for the collar and leash draped down his front. I stand facing him.

A bold puppy

Loki and I were talking the other night, and I threatened him with withholding his masturbation privileges. He whined, and begged me not to do so, asking what he could do to aviod this punishment.
"Incidentally," I said "you haven't asked nor have I given you permission to masturbate in several days. This seems highly unusual. Is everything OK? Is there anything I need to know?"
A gasp. Then silence.
"Did you think I wouldn't notice?"
"Master, I am SO sorry!! I forgot to ask your permission. I can't believe how bad I've been. I am so, so sorry, Master!"
"How many times, Loki"
"Three, Master." This seemed plausible.
"You will have to be punished for this, Loki. I need to teach you a lesson so you will remember to ask"
"Please, Master. I'm afraid! What are you going to do to me?"
"Let's just say you will leave after this weekend with a physical reminder not to masturbate without my permission."
"What kind of reminder, Master?"
"You will see, Loki, but I'm very disappointed in you. That is a rule that I take very seriously and I consider it quite disrespectful of you to break that rule."
"Yes, Master. I will always ask from now on, Master. May I masturbate tonight, Master?"
"Cheeky pup! I think not! We won't see each other for 5 more days, I think it's only fair that you not masturbate until you receive your punishment when we see each other next. Otherwise, how will you truly learn that lesson."
"Please, Master! Don't make me wait that long! I need to masturbate! Don't take that away!"
"I'm afraid your actions have made that unavoidable now, Loki. You have no choice in the matter, and no more begging or you might loose other privileges."
"Yes, Master. I understand. I am very sorry, Master. I accept your punishment and deserve your scorn. You are such a good Master to me, I am sorry I betrayed you."
"Thank you, Loki, but the punishment must still stand."

Now, to wait 5 whole days till Loki gets his just desserts.

On transforming into a puppy

Loki starts on two feet.
First to go on is the dog collar, symbolizing the start of puppy time. Once the collar is on, there is no talking for Loki, only "pupspeak".

Next, off come the clothes. An enema is administered to clean things out. And a bath. This allows me a chance to do a quick physical on my pup and make sure he's clean and sound. He hates the tub. Often this results in some biting. And while I understand his dislike, biting cannot be tolerated. There for he gets some discipline, a slap or 2, and the gag. The gag is one of those beautiful O ring ones that makes him drooley like a dog, and humiliates him a bit more.

Out of the tub, dried off, and now to some transformation. Most obviously, the beautiful, black, furry butt plug tail. I like to watch him wag his tale. If he's not in a mood to cooperate, or still sulking about the tub, some spanking usually puts him right.
First we start with the front paws, this helps limit his objections and limits his options. Vetwrap paws in his favorite color, red. Next are the rear legs. Some knee pads because I don't want to injure my pup (although I do like to hurt him and see him squirm), then bind his legs up - calves to thighs, so he must walk on his knees. This is an excellent deterrent to his jumping up on furniture. Now, to get up on the bed or couch as a special treat when I allow it, he must beg and must have my assistance to get up.
And, Voila! The basics of transforming Loki the slave biped into Loki the puppy.

So now what? We play fetch and work on commands such as sit, stay, down and heel.

Occasionally, my puppy is bad! Like all dogs, if not entertained and exercised enough - he can be come destructive. Sometimes just hiding things on me, at times tearing things apart, knocking things around, and just generally making a mess. This requires discipline. For Loki, I tend to use spankings and floggings. For more minor offenses - restraint and isolation and deprivation. But, the punishment must fit the crime.

At meal time, Loki must eat from his dog dishes. Though, as a special treat I sometimes bind him into a sitting position and feed him by hand. We both enjoy this.

Some of my favorite times with Loki are the quiet times, when he relaxes, curled up next to me, head on my lap, watching TV or sleeping as I read.

At night, he sleeps at the side of my bed. Ready to protect me, ready to fulfill any need, and only an arms length away.

Our Walk

"Loki" I said, "it's time for a walk."
Loki had been sitting on the couch next to me as I read a book. We had been enjoying a quite Saturday morning. He had been a very good pup and finished his chores without hesitation and had been waiting ever so patiently while I finished my reading. He wore only his collar and tail plug, and his hands were bound like paws, now that his chores were done. Now it was time to reward him for being so good.
As soon as I mentioned his name, he jumped up from the couch, ready to go. A smile on his face and in his eyes, I helped him pull on some pants and a shirt, keeping his tail and paws in place, and helped him with his shoes. Since we were just walking in the woods, away from the company of strangers, I thought it would be a good time to walk him on the leash and get some behavior training in along the way. I clipped the leash to Loki's collar (he's so proud of his red leather collar and golden bone-shaped name tag), grabbed my backpack, and we left the house.
It was a gorgeous spring day, and there was so much for a puppy to see and do!!
We walked for a while through the woods, stopping now and then for a game of chase or fetch, or just to relax and have a drink by the stream. Loki behaved admirably! I was so proud of him. I was hoping to be able to take him to a puppy park soon.
As a special treat, since he had been so good while on the leash, I decided to let him off and run for a bit. His recall had been very good lately. I reminded him that should he not return when called, he should expect to be punished.
He darted around, capering here and there, reveling in his freedom. Then, something caught his eyes though the trees and he was gone!! I called after him, called for him to return in a stern voice, but he ignored me.
Disappointed in his self-discipline, I followed after him. His trail led directly to the old barn. I should have guessed. He always did like exploring it.
The barn structure itself was impressive. Good solid timber frame and holding up well. Yet, clearly, it had been used for little in years. The only thing to be seen was someone's long neglected, dusty old kayak.
Sure enough, There was Loki, pawing through the old remnants of former days, stirring up motes of dust to drift discontentedly in the shafts of sunlight.
"Loki!" I near-growled to show my displeasure.
He actually ignored me! Too entranced in his current discovery to even recognize the tone in my voice.
"Loki!" I barked again. This time he started, and turned to look at me. You could see in his startled expression that he had been so self-absorbed, he'd almost forgotten me. Now, his face began to look very hang-dog indeed, as he saw me lower my backpack to the floor.
I came at him with the leash. Anticipation of what was to come made him nervous and he tried to bolt past me. I quickly and securely grabbed him around the waist to stop him fleeing. This got his adrenaline pumping even more because he lunged for my arm around him and bit me!! No blood, but you could see it was going to be a bute in a day or two. Not releasing my grip, I firmly slapped him across the face.
"NEVER bite, Loki" I reprimanded, now very upset.
Leash connected to collar now, I lead him back to the center of the room where I had let my backpack fall. I pulled out the gag I carried for just such situations, and after a brief struggle (and much whining on Loki's part) I was able to get it in. Loki just didn't know when to stop!! Running off, not returning when called, biting, and now resisting his punishment! Major infractions! On went the blindfold as well.
Lashing the leash around a beam so he couldn't run off, I tossed a rope over the main support beam, a few feet above our heads. I pulled Loki to my side and binding his hands together, I pulled his arms up, so that his feet were only just touching the ground flat footed. I ripped of his shirt, and pulled off his pants, leaving him standing strung up naked in the middle of the big room.
Without a word more, I left.
He was quiet for several minutes, but then began to whine, not knowing where I had gone or when I'd be back.
Quiet as a mouse, I searched for a few more tools. Quickly enough I found what I needed. An old broom handle and leather strap from an old saddle.
Waiting several more minutes - enjoying the sunshine and beautiful day- I sat listening to Loki's whining. I could tell by the changes in his posture and tone, that what had been rebelliousness when first cornered was now changing rapidly to anxiety and fear. Where had I gone, when would I return, what else was in store for him. Now to change that anxiety to contrition. Now it was time to finish the lesson.
I re-entered the barn with an extra heavy footfall which startled him. I could see him shiver (it made his tale quiver in an enticing way). I approached and stood directly before him before speaking.
"Loki - do you realize how many rules you've broken? Do you realize how much that disappoints me? Running off, not returning when recalled, biting AND resisting your punishment - all in one afternoon, in one action really!! Egregious behavior like this can definitely not be overlooked. It is time for a lesson."
The lines in his face - which at the first sound of my voice had relaxed some- now deepened in dread and anticipation.
"For running away - I will hobble you." I spread his feet apart, and using the broom handle and some straps, improvised a spreader bar. Now with his legs spread, he was just barely able to touch the ground with his tiptoes hanging the way he was.
"Next, for not returning when you were recalled, I will teach you to mind your master" Without further warning I applied the nipple clamps to nipples and scrotum, looped around his penis so each little twitch of erection would tug the clamps just a bit. Loki gasped and then moaned.
"You already have the gag in for the biting, but now for resisting your punishment and not acknowledging your mistakes with grace and humility...." I took out the strap and began strapping his ass and thighs. His ass began to glow red hot. He had passed the point of squirming and become much more quiet. I knew I was approaching his limit.
I stopped with the strap and whispered in Loki's ear "Had enough? Are you sorry?"
A stifled sob was what I heard, but full of self-pity and still lacking in humility.
I fondled his cock and balls and whispered too them how wonderful they were and how it was such a shame that the brain attached to them had been so disrespectful because now I wouldn't be able to play with them. Loki's cock throbbed under the attention and seemed to be nodding in agreement. Each movement pulled just a bit on his nipples. I detached the nipple clamps, and let the chains dangle from the scrotum. Using my hand now, I spanked his already tender nipples.
Now I began to sense the contrition and total submission of ego. The sobs grew a bit more earnest and through the gag I began to hear "I'm sorry, Master".
Lesson learned. I undid the clamp on the scrotum, released his legs and let him down from the beam. He tottered a bit, standing as I removed his gag and blindfold.
"I'm sorry, Master. I am so sorry I deliberately disobeyed your rules and disappointed you. Thank you for correcting me, Master. Thank you for caring enough to teach me what not to do. I am sorry, Master. Thank you for your forgiveness, Master".
I helped Loki redress, and we sat together in the middle of the barn, trying to warm back up in the heat of the sunlight coming through the window above, and I held him to reassure him that I did forgive him and loved him still. We walked home later, Loki at my side on the leash, as the sun began to set.

On Becoming a Master

So my Loki is finally here!
Our first evening together we started experimenting with some of our toys and feeling out our roles. We've started working with basic obedience commands and rule setting - learning what puppies can do and aren't allowed to do. Loki looks so irresistible with his collar on and tail in, I had to overcome the urge to take him on the spot! We've been playing with some bondage - well, OK, I've been trying to tie up my Houdini of a puppy. Need to work on it. But the motel room he's been in has been a bit prohibitively small and without great tying sites, and our time has been limited and complicated by non-role playing environments that we've had to interact in. I think maybe that's making it a bit harder to assume the Master/slave relationship. He's been seeing me in other roles and they are conflicting.

But today is a new day. Today, in less than 3 hours we will be on our own!! NOW I will assume command without question!

First order of business today will be to feed my puppy, in order to establish trust, respect and control. Then, I think, we'll to a vet check up, to make sure he's sound and healthy...
Check back soon! Juicer details to follow!

Waiting, Waiting...

It's almost here!! My puppy, Loki, arrives tomorrow to commence his training and consummate our relationship. Today we completed a Puppy Play Negotiation Form. this just helped confirm that we were interested in pursuing the same activities during our time together and clarifying and limits that needed to be established beforehand (thanks to MaePuppy and Scamp at Puppy Play Pride for the form and some good links).

We really enjoyed discussing our plans for the next few days, and teasing each other quite a bit! Loki surely does have a devilish side and I can see this is going to take a lot of tough love, patience and consistency on my part. I gave him a lot of food for thought. For instance, we discussed how the punishment for biting would likely include application of the gag, spanking and "time out" in the crate. Escaping from being "tied up" could lead to more extreme limb binding and possibly mummification. He says he's not looking forward to bath time, but I am!!! He says he's likely to be very bold in the tub. I have a few plans to distract him, however.

But today, I think what I will be doing most is anticipating that first contact as Master and puppy, when I can apply his collar for the first time. That will be so intense! Then, when we get "home" for the evening I can't wait to spend some time grooming and petting him. He has a butt plug tail, already, that he's been practicing with. Mixed satisfaction it sounds like on his part, but I think he just needs some loving kindness and a gentle hand to feel comfortable with it. And based on the pictures he's shared with me so far, I CANNOT wait to see him with it in!

The next 36 hours are going to be torture (especially for him, because I've assigned him the "homework" of not masturbating from now until we meet)! This will be his first real challenge, but I am anxious to begin proving myself as his Master, and thought this would be a good power-play way to start - and a not unreasonable goal I think. I went into great detail with him what special attention his cock would get if he managed to last until our encounter. He seemed to really enjoy that possibility. I described the punishment should he not comply - which would include some isolation in his crate, wearing of the gag, binding of his hands, and watching me masturbate while ignoring him. It will be interesting to see what he does!!

Back to sleep for a few more winks. I've also added a few links and reading ideas for you. I hope you enjoy!